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February 26 Happy birthdaySomeone has a birthday today. I hope it is a special day for you and I am happy we can share it together. Happy birthday, honey.
February 22 Hoping.....................There are times when I have this great urge to write things down; at the end of a rough day it should be a great feeling to be told that someone loves you and appreciates you.
I do know that I have such dreams and plans - there is so much that I want to see and do - and I dont want to do it on my on but with Tai at my side. At my side when I sleep and when I wake.
I want her to share every part of the great days with me and at the end of the day I want to tell her about the bad days and let her voice reassure me that everything will be well.....and with her there, everything will be well.
I want to grow old with Tai, to be with her as our life unfolds and as our dreams become real. My commitment to this relationship is like nothing I have experienced before; it is total and knows no limits. But it can be an emotional roller coaster - no more just getting through from day to day - the good days are wonderful; but if something upsets the emotional balance and the dark clouds gather then the emotional lows beckon, although they are usually short lived.
When Tai is away i am lonely here – I try to be strong and for the most part I do pretty well – but without work and without the challenge it is not easy to get through the days when she is not around…….and tonight she was a long way away in Shanghai; the lines were bad and we were both tired. Not a good recipe.
I try to be positive on the work front – everyone says be patient – and that I will be OK – but it would be nice to roll the clocks forward and to know that is for real…..I am making a huge commitment to being in Dubai; following my heart and our dream because I do believe in us. I am trying to find a senior role in a city where I have no contacts and no experience and it is proving slower and a bit harder than I expected….
I was not able to eat tonight - just had some hot tea.....tomorrow is another day - i will wake up wishing that she was next to me and hoping that all is well in our world; that a hiccup is nothing more than that and that what we have is unbreakable.
Goodnight - sweet dreams.
February 19 Update from DubaiIt has been a tough couple of days. Job hunting is starting to frustrate me. One meeting yesterday was postponed after I arrived. The recruiter that I was supposed to meet was sick; but she had not told her assistant about our meeting. Feeling stood up I called to see what had happened. We will reschedule for another day but it was not a good start to the week.
Another meeting in the afternoon was better but really just a case of meeting people who I hope will make some introductions for me and pass on my resume.
I am finding this job search harder than expected. My resume is good. My experience is extensive. I am available immediately. I am not that expensive; there are no school or relocation costs. But there are simply not that many vacancies and the recruitment process is slow.
I work the phone - people are helpful but it is hard to get past the gatekeepers to the decision makers. And then many of the decision makers are away on business...."he will be back next Saturday" is a regular expression.....
There must be work here for me - I really am quite smart ! And I am good at what I do.
In the meantime I feel a bit guilty that it is Tai who is working so hard.....all I can say is that I have done many many years of hard work !!!
Fingers crossed for a change in fortunes and some good news......
February 13 Back to DubaiTai and I arrived back in Dubai this morning. As usual EK 385 was packed and it was not a very comfortable flight.
I enjoyed being back in BKK with Tai. She was excited to be home and it is amazing how much we were able to do in one week.
It was all good; well a couple of rough moments ! There were some highlights.
We went and saw Tai's old primary school as well as her University. I enjoy learning about her life :)
The Let Us Sea resort in Hua Hin is a very attractive small resort with a spa and with rooftop decks above half of the rooms where you can lie back and star gaze. The restaurant is good; it has beach access and the staff pay great attention to the small details. There are only 40 rooms built either side of a 100 metre long pool.
We ate on Sunday night at Breeze restuarant. This is the newest addition to the restaurants at State Tower (the Lebua hotel). It is in the open air on the 52nd floor. Mainly a seafood menu the food is excellent and is very nicely presented. A very romantic place to eat. Not cheap !
Tai had a haircut; not just a cut but a complete restyling. And the new short style is very classy indeed; she looks fabulous. After over three years of seeing her with long hair this will take some getting used to and will mean a huge new collection of pictures.
I bravely went to Bumrungrad for my first full medical check up for four years and am basically in better shape than I was four years ago. That was pleasing; must keep up the exercise.
And we shopped! Pratunam; the markets around Silom and Saladaeng; the textile market; the market at Thammarsat University and at Saphan Taksin; Central; TOPS. A healthy contribution to the Thai economy!
Some pictures follow:
February 06 Back in Bangkok - not quite as plannedWell, we are back in BKK - although things have not gone quite as I hoped; albeit rather as I feared might happen.
We had a great flight over - it was fast to BKK - just five hours flying time. And we spend most of the flight paying Reversi and Tetris against eachother; the flight passed very quickly. I am truly hopeless at Tetris....
But today I am in Bangkok on my own while Tai is at home with her family. Not quite what I hoped for. I know she will have a great time with her family. I just was not ready to spend 2 or 3 days on my own in BKK and I really had hoped that we would be spending the holiday together.
It was a difficult evening for a while last night when I knew we would be apart; but there really is no room for me with all the family arriving home to meet Tai. And they should have time to be together as a family and I should be OK with that ! It is like she went on a layover - albeit to Ratchaburi.
Instead I will keep busy - reviewing contracts for our Dubai apartment and rather more scary - going for a full medical at Bumrungrad hospital tomorrow. That will be my first full medical since early 2003 and it will be interesting to see what changes have taken place. I dug out the old report so that I can compare the two !
Time for a haircut as well....lots to do tomorrow ! Doesnt sound very exciting does it!
February 04 Heading for BangkokTai and I will be in Bangkok around 6pm on Monday night (5 Feb). We will be flying together on EK...a few firsts; our first long flight together, Tai's first flight as a passenger out of DXB and her first passenger flight since graduation. It is also her first trip home since coming to Dubai. And I am happy for her.
Many of her friends in Emirates have already had the opportunity to head home; and I know it will mean so much for Tai to be able to spend time with her family and to catch up with her friends....
It will be a busy and happy time. So much has happened to us both over the last few months. Life is often about choices that you make. But the best choices are those that are made together. We have chosen eachother and chosen to build our new life in a new city.....we will always have family and friends but now it is an extended and new family.
I have not mentioned Alex here for a while; I always thought I would stay and work as close to him as I could; a very wise friend once advised me that I should make sure that I look after myself; don't do things because of the past but get out and live your life. Actually he was my lawyer and a wise friend.
Tai once wrote that I should forget the past and embrace the new.
Alex will always be a part of our lives. Tai loves him very much and I believe he knows that he will always have a home wherever we are. I won't be able to see him as much or as often as I did in the past. And I always miss being a part of his life; I miss watching him grow up day to day. But he is a wonderfullly mature boy. And I hope we will always be able to find a way to bring him to Dubai or to share holidays with him.
If he ever reads this I hope he knows that my love for him never changes.
But Tai is right, and my lawyer is right. If you find someone to love then embrace it, cherish that love; learn from the past and live for the present and future. I am engaged to an amazing woman and that is life changing !
More from Bangkok in the next week; and hopefully a few pictures as well.
February 03 Sentimental in Dubai!Good morning!
Tai is on her way to Athens this morning; back on Sunday night for a few hours sleep and then we fly back to Bangkok for a week. Surprisingly that will be our first long flight together - although I suspect we both may be asleep for some of the flight!
I know Tai is so excited about being back with her family...I want to be with her and to spend time with her family; I want to see where she grew up; to see her school and home; but I am not sure if there is enough room for me.....I hope so !
I feel a bit sentimental today - my move to Dubai and to being with Tai is a great commitment and comes with a huge sense of responsibility to care for her and to do the best for us. So much of the time I feel so close to her it is as though we think, act, share and laugh as one. If every day could be like that...................
I will always be sad when she flies out of Dubai for work and will always be happier when we are together day and night than when we have to be apart. But as long as we both hold eachother close in our hearts then we will be able to look after eachother.
As I said - a bit sentimental today; to some extent it may be because I still feel in transit - finding work will help; sorting out our living arrangements for the rest of this year until our apartment is ready; having a car, residents permit etc...
Having somone put their arms around you - by instinct - and tell you that they love you and everything will be OK. That helps a lot as well.
February 01 The beginning of a new monthIt is the 1st February; the beginning of a new month - Tai has been flying two months; on 3 February we will have been engaged for two months; there is our first trip back to BKK together starting on Monday 5th; Valentines (although Tai will be in Vienna) and Tai's birthay at the end the month.
It is also the month when I really should find some work in Dubai; I should not be despondent; I only started my job search 20 days ago ! But things just seem to move more slowly here.
We were out in the desert today! Riding 4WDs, camels and eating under the stars. It was a fun day.
It would be good to get settled here soon - we have a year to wait until our apartment is ready. So I need a job to get a residents permit to be able to sign a lease to have an apartment near to Tai in Dubai; and I need a job to keep me busy and give me something challenging to do. And I need a residents permit to own a car etc etc. And a car would be a real benefit for us here.
It will be a busy month. I wish I felt completely certain how everything will turn out.....I know I am doing the right thing; and I know what I want for me and for Tai.....the destination is crystal clear and is everything that I want....I just hope that there are no bumps or detours along the way....
It was a fun day to start the month - and here are a few pictures from our desert safari! |
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